Scared, because of what the future may hold.
Hopeless, because there is nothing I can do about it.
Alone, because I can’t relate to most of my friends and female colleagues when they discuss periods and pregnancy.
Confused, because a lot of doctors and nurses don’t know what MRKH is, let alone how to help me with my questions.
Brave, because I can grin and bear it even when things start getting a little rough.
Frustrated, because I know what challenges we face when deciding to have children.
Broken, because of the way people react to my syndrome for the first time, and the way people look at me differently forever after they find out.
Nervous, because I never know if people will accept me the way that I am.
Hurt, because it feels like the world is completely against me.
Angry, because it seems like everyone else is having babies and no matter what, I just can’t.
Miserable, because I just got home from a baby shower and wish I could feel new life growing inside me.
Happy, because I never have to go through the trouble of buying tampons or pads or worrying about bleeding through my clothes every month.
Relieved, because choosing a method of contraception is simpler.
Misunderstood, because some people say stupid things about how lucky I am not to have a period every month and that I should consider my problems a “blessing.”
Irritated, because people that don’t know the situation are always questioning when we are going to be starting a family, and if we don’t feel like sharing my details with them we have to fudge a story about not being able to afford it and what-not.
Strong, because I am 1 in 5000!