I am becoming more acutely aware of my scenario every day, it seems. I was driving in town just this evening and ended up seeing a lot of new moms outside of our local baby boutique, with their cute, colorful little strollers and babies all done up for the chilly fall weather. I also passed a lot of families walking in town with their kids in hand or up on their shoulders, checking out our local scarecrow festival. My entire trip into town seemed to be child-oriented. That, on top of a barrage of people from my new job asking about whether I have kids or am married and what not, plus the upcoming baby shower for his friends' newborn is just making a mess of me. His friends keep asking when we are going to have kids of our own, and while he laughs it off, I find it really hard to defend the question without starting a whole new, crazy and confused conversation with them about my MRKH. They think we have been together long enough that we should be considering children, and rant on and on about how I need to join the "mommy" club soon so we can have playdates. I just try to smile and joke around about waiting for finances to be right (not an exact lie, eh??) and play with their kids with the collection of toys I have sitting sadly upstairs, unused except for visitors like their little ones and my sisters.
I don't know guys, I just really needed to get all of that off my chest. It has been bothering me these last few weeks, especially with a new crowd of people that have no idea what I'm going through (and don't intend on telling any time soon - they are WAY too gossipy and judgmental there).
Any advice, guys? I could really use it! Thanks for reading!