The holidays are a very hard time for baby depression... The closer it gets to Christmas, and the more gifts I buy for my younger siblings and our nephew, (Ages 15, 9, and two 3 year olds), the more I wonder what it would be like to buy presents for our own little ones, to let the grown-ups gifts fall to the way-side in light of buying the perfect present for young ones of our own, for visits of loving grandparents to come see us and our beautiful tree, house full of lights and freshly baked Christmas cookies... Needless to say, none of this happens n our household as nobody plans to come visit us and we have no children to decorate extravagantly for. It is senseless to make huge batches of cookies or make pretty gingerbread houses. The only decoration that is seen is the stockings on the wall and the tree we will be picking out next week, which will not have fifty little presents underneath in the weeks coming to Christmas.It does not help seeing all the commercials advertising the perfect toys and gifts for children and grandchildren. Everyone else's family Christmas photos make me sad as well, with all the exciting family outings and fun times they are having.
Other than that, we have finally set our financial goals, and I am going to apply to be on the adoption registry here in NS next week. It takes about 8 years wait time, so by that time we should have enough money saved for a biological child through IVF as well. My Facebook has officially been deleted as well, it was easy enough to do with a quick Google search. It is so much easier not having that on top of the holiday stress.
I am still in the process of doing research in regards to signing up for adoption, but I think it is a very good option as long as we are willing to tackle some challenges and to endure even more social odds as people regard us to being different for something else, it is bad enough they think I cannot have sex "normally" but then to find out that we adopted a child (or goodness forbid, multiple children)?? I know our immediate families will be as supportive as they can but nobody else seems to have gone through this sort of thing that we have, so it will be a struggle regardless of the path we choose.
Thanks for reading!
Other than that, we have finally set our financial goals, and I am going to apply to be on the adoption registry here in NS next week. It takes about 8 years wait time, so by that time we should have enough money saved for a biological child through IVF as well. My Facebook has officially been deleted as well, it was easy enough to do with a quick Google search. It is so much easier not having that on top of the holiday stress.
I am still in the process of doing research in regards to signing up for adoption, but I think it is a very good option as long as we are willing to tackle some challenges and to endure even more social odds as people regard us to being different for something else, it is bad enough they think I cannot have sex "normally" but then to find out that we adopted a child (or goodness forbid, multiple children)?? I know our immediate families will be as supportive as they can but nobody else seems to have gone through this sort of thing that we have, so it will be a struggle regardless of the path we choose.
Thanks for reading!