Just thought I'd share these thoughts. Thanks for reading.
Hello, folks. Just wanted to say that I am having one of my baby-depression days in preparation for our friends' baby shower on the weekend. I have been doing really well with everything, keeping my syndrome to myself and joking and carrying on with everyone. But today, after doing some shopping for baby boy stuff (since they already had their baby in August) and browsing all of the adorable selections and teeny tiny little booties, I can't help but sit here and feel sorry for myself over not being able to have children. I feel like there is some reason that I was born this way, that I was not meant to have them or something, and everything I try to do to change that is just not meant to be. I find this really heartbreaking, and even though it is probably not true, right at this moment it is really bothering me. I am really not looking forward to going to this baby shower and cooing over their newborn (cute as he is) because I know it is just going to make me more miserable and more hateful than I already am. I had a hard enough time before, playing with their little girl, who is a toddler, while watching the mother wander around pregnant and squealing over her belly moving and joking around with them about when we will have kids. Now is the time to face the reality of it all and remind myself of all the things I won't get to have or feel.
Just thought I'd share these thoughts. Thanks for reading.
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Kristen Peterson
10/28/2013 02:34:08 pm
Oh, Miss Bri!
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Author21 year old girl with MRKH. I am a college student, supervisor at Tim Hortons, writer and volunteer on the side. I love my animals, reading, and spending time with people closest to me! I am trying to come to terms with my syndrome. I hope to find the perfect way to start a family of our own. Archives
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