Also, C and I have decided to postpone our wedding plans for a while. We are going to remain together and engaged but we have so many other things going on in our lives right now that we just can't possibly plan our wedding and fund that on top of everything else. We just don't need the additional stress. I am trying to get my Veterinary Assistant course finished and paid off (4.0 GRADE AVERAGE SO FAR!!) and we both have debts that need to be dealt with before we finish paying for everything for our wedding. The rings are bought, the dress is bought, some little items are purchased like the garter, guestbook, pen, and cake topper, but there are still the invitations, photographer, flowers, food, and all the other little stuff involved! It is just too much right now. Plus we are trying to save money to buy a house within the next few years and have me go back to school to further my education in an office administration course, and be able to get a higher paying job and pay my car off!!! Add to the equation trying to figure out what is going on medically with me for whether we can do IVF or not, and it is just really not worth our time at the moment to try to fit wedding plans into this mess. I know some people would question whether any time is the right time, but I can tell you honestly right now is not.
I also gave C an ultimatum that, if unable to conceive through IVF after 5 attempts, I am going to adopt, and if he does not want anything to do with that, then he needs to get his stuff together and leave, because I want a child more than anything and nobody is going to prevent that, regardless of how much I love him. I have wanted a child for as long as I can remember. It is a few years away yet but I have made sure that it is put out there that he can leave at any time, sleep with someone who doesn't have fertility problems like mine and have a baby biologically and "normally" but he will never get that with me. And he looked me in the eye and told me that regardless what happens, our fertility problems would never be the cause of us separating. I'm holding him to that one!!!!!
I will update you all when I know what is going on and I hear back from my gyno this week or next! Thanks for reading!