I think I have come to a conclusion for my troubles with the IVF VS ADOPTION shenanigans going on throughout my head. I have always wanted to adopt a child, even when I was only 8 or 9 and had a long way to go before learning that I am indeed infertile and dealing with MRKH. I always used to say that I wanted to adopt one and have one of my own. And I am starting to wonder if that is truly the plan for my life? Should I bother with the fertility treatments? Are the drugs and their potential effects worth it? Or would I be better off just adopting? Another problem I have been having is that my fiance is not a fan of adoption, as he sees it as having to raise someone else's child, and it is really not about that at all. It is about giving the child a better life, a better chance to carry on and be taken care of properly.
I've also been communicating with some incredible people online via Twitter, and reading some incredible articles. Shout-outs to @MRKHNorge, @Kahristen and @arwenrosemrkh for being so very supportive and communicating back and forth with me. I was speaking with @arwenrosemrkh about how she is currently in her second IVF treatment and the medication isn't really that hard on you. She also mentioned asking my gyno/doctor about getting evaluated and see just where my ovaries are in relation to my vagina (supposedly one ovary is in the right spot) and to gauge how difficult it would be for them to go trans-vaginally to extract my eggs instead of doing an incision, possibly decreasing my IVF costs and the time I would need to take off work from the procedures.
My biggest conflict at the moment is that my current medications are low-low-low dose hormones that are meant for women going through menopause/hysterectomies, because I had bad reactions to the stronger pills that made me just-a-little crazy (my fiance emphatically stating PSYCHO beside me!!) and I am nervous as to what the new medications could do as they would be stronger dosages of hormones. For those who are unaware of what the drugs for menopause are, they are Estrace and Medrone, essentially estrogen and progesterone hormones meant to balance me out as my system right now develops some but far from enough every month.
The other conflict is purely financial, as it is still a VERY expensive procedure. I know we will have financial aid from family and friends as well as a never-ending support group in our situation, but it is hard to come up with $30,000. But then again, in the time where people can raise funds online through sites like Kickstarter, there has got to be a way to get public support, right?
And just so we are clear, I still want to be registered in the adoption registry as well!! That is still in my plans! Thanks for reading!
Here is a photo of our morphed baby for your viewing pleasure :)
I've also been communicating with some incredible people online via Twitter, and reading some incredible articles. Shout-outs to @MRKHNorge, @Kahristen and @arwenrosemrkh for being so very supportive and communicating back and forth with me. I was speaking with @arwenrosemrkh about how she is currently in her second IVF treatment and the medication isn't really that hard on you. She also mentioned asking my gyno/doctor about getting evaluated and see just where my ovaries are in relation to my vagina (supposedly one ovary is in the right spot) and to gauge how difficult it would be for them to go trans-vaginally to extract my eggs instead of doing an incision, possibly decreasing my IVF costs and the time I would need to take off work from the procedures.
My biggest conflict at the moment is that my current medications are low-low-low dose hormones that are meant for women going through menopause/hysterectomies, because I had bad reactions to the stronger pills that made me just-a-little crazy (my fiance emphatically stating PSYCHO beside me!!) and I am nervous as to what the new medications could do as they would be stronger dosages of hormones. For those who are unaware of what the drugs for menopause are, they are Estrace and Medrone, essentially estrogen and progesterone hormones meant to balance me out as my system right now develops some but far from enough every month.
The other conflict is purely financial, as it is still a VERY expensive procedure. I know we will have financial aid from family and friends as well as a never-ending support group in our situation, but it is hard to come up with $30,000. But then again, in the time where people can raise funds online through sites like Kickstarter, there has got to be a way to get public support, right?
And just so we are clear, I still want to be registered in the adoption registry as well!! That is still in my plans! Thanks for reading!
Here is a photo of our morphed baby for your viewing pleasure :)